*takes a deep breath*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT. I AM THE STUPIDEST FUCKING IDIOT IN THE ENTIRE FREAKING WORLD.

i wrote myself five - count them, FIVE - reminders to myself to call my mother to tell her to change the tape in the vcr at home. since ucsd cable doesn't carry upn for some weird reason, i was forced to set the vcr to tape buffy and roswell every week. however, vhs tapes can only record up to 6 hours so my mom has to change the tape every three weeks. but i only remembered to call my mom just now. buffy's already over and roswell's half over. i feel really bad because i called her anyway and i think i woke her up. :( i am such a shithead. i can't believe i forgot. seriously, i was thinking about calling her all day for two days. i just kept putting it off though. AAAAARGH. i can't BELIEVE how stupid i am.

i think i'm gonna start crying. it's okay, i think i might be pmsing. actually, i don't think so. that's sad. where's the chocolate?