ugh. UGH. i hate vietnamese so much. i was on the phone with my parents for THREE HOURS trying to get this damn presentation straight. and i'm STILL going to screw it up tomorrow, i just know it. it just pisses me off so much that like, everyone in class can just go up there and just talk without having to plan every single word of what they're going to say while i have to sit here for three hours and spell out every single word so i don't embarrass myself. and i feel absolutely TERRIBLE that i kept both my parents up super late tonight especially since they both have to wake up so early. uuuuugh...i'm such an awful daughter. especially since i'm not even going to be continuing with the class next quarter. man, i feel bad for my parents. what a horrible daughter they have. i hate this stupid class. i can't believe it's causing me this much grief. i hate this class so much and it's supposed to be my "fun" class. irony sucks.

really though, i just hate the fact that i cannot learn this stupid stupid language to save my life. i mean, don't you think it's sad that i know more italian than i do vietnamese? i know if i told my vietnamese teacher that, she'd burst out into hysterics and start blaming me for turning my back on my heritage and all that other crap. why is vietnamese giving me so many problems?!? to tell you the truth, i've definitely got some issues with that language. i think i just feel more pressure to learn that language because i *am* vietnamese. with italian, it's like...whatever, it's just a cool language to learn. also, i hate to bag on my vietnamese teacher, but i need to find someone who can actually TEACH me the language, not throw out random unconnecting chunks of the language and expect me to learn from that. when i'm rich (yes, WHEN, not if), i'm going to hire a private tutor to teach me vietnamese. i will learn this stupid language if it's the last thing i do. i'm just going to stop taking this class because it's pissing me off so much. the people in there just make me feel stupid and absolutely incompetent. like, how can you not know your own language? i don't know, i just don't so BITE ME.

this class is just not good for my health.