hmm...i'm all alone. on a friday night. like, COMPLETELY alone. neha and sanaz went home for the weekend (although i think neha might be coming back tomorrow - in any case, she's not going to be here for the night) and tasha went out with shivan and probably won't be back until late late. there's no one at the other girls' apartment either. oh wait, there's allyn. but she's watching a movie or something, at least that's what her away message says. grace and helen went to la, and melissa went home for the weekend. so here i am, all alone in my apartment. it's not too bad. still can't get into blogger and now, actually, any page, not just blogger. like i've said before (like ten million times), the internet around here sucks. tasha and sanaz had problems getting to webpages too. bloggerbot's not on aim right now so i'm just typing this up on wordpad. will post later.

had lunch with christina chen today. i was so happy to see her. :) i was looking forward to our lunch date today for like the entire week. just chatted about random stuff - classes, our apartments, holidays, etc. didn't realize how much i missed her till we had lunch. yes, awww... it was funny, we saw nibi there (at subway's) but he had to go to class so he couldn't sit down and eat with us. really must hang out with chris more often.

i'm so depressed. i don't know why. yes, actually i do know why, but i don't really wanna blog about it. would rather keep all of it in my head where it'll fester, rot, putrefy, ulcerate, rankle, decay, develop gangrene (i love thesauruses, don't you?) and make me go absolutely mad. funny thing...i'm a psych major, but i don't really care for therapy or counseling. i mean, i can understand the need to talk about your problems with people who aren't involved with your problems, but i can usually find a friend who can fill those shoes instead of a complete stranger. i mean, paying someone to listen to you talk? i dunno...the whole time i'd just be thinking, "the shrink doesn't want to be here. s/he doesn't really care." let me clarify something though - this is just my opinion of "regular" therapy though. "regular" therapy as in "normal" people like you and me (well, i don't know about you personally) who would just go to get a few things off our chests like, i don't have a job, i hate school, i look ugly, no one likes me, blah blah blah. i DO think therapy and counseling is a good idea for people with more serious things like a rape or a death of a friend/family member. but yeah...why am i talking about therapy? i don't know.

ugh. had serious chocolate cravings today. baked a batch of brownies. was fully intending to accessorize my brownies with chocolate ice cream but stopped myself. i haven't even eaten dinner yet and it's like 930 pm. i'm starting to get really bored too. don't really want to watch tv. really wanted to rent a movie, but was too lazy to walk all the way to blockbuster and back. so now i'm just sitting here blogging with bridget jones's diary in my lap. rereading the part where bridget goes to mark's place for his parent's ruby anniversary (or whatever it's called). speaking of bridget jones's diary, i bid on a copy of the dvd on ebay. someone was auctioning off a bunch of bridget jones's diary dvds for like 9.99 so i placed a bid on one of them, but i was quickly outbid. i watched the other ones that he was auctioning off, but all those bids went up too. the cheapest one was like 12 something and shipping was like 3.00 so i didn't bother since at costco, it's like 18-19.00 and i was pretty sure i would've been outbidded again. oh well.

oh, physics midterm went horribly. professor LIED THROUGH HIS TEETH. well, okay, not really. well, actually, yes he did. he said that the midterm would have problems that would be really similar to the homework so i stayed up till 430 am studying all the homework problems and copying them down onto my cheat sheet. the midterm's problems were NOT like the homework. there were six problems total - i guessed on two of them. i had absolutely no idea how to work out the problem, i just threw down some physics-looking gibberish and handed in my blue book. whatever. i just want to pass the midterm, i don't really care about the grade since i'm just taking the class pass/no pass. but still. 430 am, man!! geez.

whoa, hey, my testing blog actually went through!! i published a testing blog using blog this and it actually worked!! i can't reach the actual page right now still, but dylan told me it was published. yay!! thanks, dylan. gonna try and post and publish this one right now.

*crosses fingers* please work!!