man, what a day. just came back from the vietnamese class. the instructor let me in. it was incredibly intimidating. the course description says the class is for students with no vietnamese background (in language, that is). i expected that everyone in the class would be vietnamese but i didn't expect that everyone in the class would know how to speak it. this is exactly like when i was ten or eleven and my parents sent me to learn vietnamese but the course was taught entirely in vietnamese and i didn't understand anything and i would rather have gutted myself than attended. eventually, they caught on that i wasn't happy and let me stop going. it was really embarrassing today when we were supposed to do some simple drills like take a sentence and make a question out of it and then respond in the negative. it was humiliating, i couldn't pronounce anything correctly. and it's so much worse than learning any other language since i AM vietnamese. like, it doesn't matter if i pronounce italian words incorrectly since i'm not italian, but pronouncing vietnamese words incorrectly in a class where everyone else has perfect pronunciation and they expect me to is just completely embarrassing. what's even worse is that i came into the class late. not late as in i came in fifteen minutes late, but late as in i came in a week late so i missed learning the basic stuff that i really really needed like the alphabet. this vietnamese class makes me feel like i'm ten years old and it makes me want to bash a hole in the wall with my head.

so why don't i just drop it? i don't know. i was thinking that too. but i figure, i have until week 4 to drop or change to pass/no pass so i'll just stick it out for now. once i get the punching bag, there won't be quite so many holes in the wall.

so now i'm taking two language classes - italian and vietnamese. and they're back to back. my head is going to be so mixed up soon.