i am quickly learning that the holidays are not my friend(s). christmas was depressing (even though it was my birthday, which actually just amplified the depression) and new year's isn't going to be any better. i have plans to stay at home alone, drinking straight from the bottle (of sparkling cider), watching all the new year's specials on tv, and kissing...well, no one.

anyway. to add to my holiday blues, i've been having a horrible time sleeping lately. i end up tossing and turning for about two to three hours first. it's just that once my head hits the pillow all these thoughts start racing in my head. completely random thoughts that weren't in my head the second before i climbed into my bed but decided to keep me tossing and turning in my bed for the next two to three hours once i lie down.

i hate being a light sleeper. and i hate the holidays.