this is a momentous occasion. it is 912 am and i am up and awake. i am actually awake to see the morning. i have more than three hours of daylight today!

i actually woke up at, you'll never believe this, 5 am. it was the most bizarre thing. i woke up to this weird panic attack. i don't know what was wrong, but i woke up and i couldn't breathe. well, i couldn't breathe *properly*. i was actually [semi-]hyperventilating. my breaths came out all shallow and choppy. and something was totally freaking me out, i don't know what. i was pretty much in a complete panic over, well, nothing. but it was definitely a panic attack. it was a little scary.

so i finally got out of bed like ten, fifteen minutes later and went downstairs and ate. i ate some leftover rice pudding/porridge/soup with chicken. i also ate a banana. i never eat bananas. but i was so strangely panicky that i just totally scarfed the banana down first while waiting for the rice thing to heat up. and then i watched some tv. lois & clark: the new adventures of superman. i miss that show. that was a good show. mmm...dean cain... anyway, i guess food and tv calmed me down, so i went back upstairs after the show was over, around 6 am and got back into bed because it was so unbelievably cold in the house. the downstairs thermometer actually read 59.5 degrees! but i couldn't fall back asleep. i lay in bed for about an hour, then finally got up around 7 and took a shower and everything. going to go shopping later with jo. she wants to go early to try to beat the crowds and she questioned whether or not i would even be able to get up, but hah! look at me! i'm awake! and fully too. i'm not even groggy, strangely enough. i'm completely wide awake. despite only sleeping about four hours.

man, that was a bizarre way to wake up though. sigh. =|