am leaving friday morning. have yet to start packing. am beginning to panic. need more sleeping pills. although, i think i keep forgetting that even after i move down, i still have a few days to settle in before class starts. but still. who wants class to start?

as usual, am wondering if all of my things will fit in father's camry. i mean, it can't be THAT bad, since freshman year was undoubtedly when i had the most stuff and in some act of mystical magic, was able to fit all of it into the camry. but still. am a little worried. wardrobe keeps expanding even though every time i look in the closet, i seemingly have "nothing" to wear.

among other things, must also worry about internet/cable, rent, bills, and obtaining washer/dryer machines. must do all this quickly too otherwise will go completely mad. no washer/dryer machines = no clean underwear. no internet/cable = no life. was supposed to start packing today (actually, was supposed to start packing yesterday) but was still feeling pretty weak and could manage to only lie down on couch and watch tv. yes yes, i suppose one could call it laziness, but actually no, was still not feeling very well. better than yesterday though - no vicodin or heat compress needed. just rest. so...leaves only four days to pack. totally manageable. i mean, it only took me a day to pack everything at the end of the year freshman and sophomore years. although, it was much easier then since i had to empty out the rooms, so i knew exactly what i needed to pack. house right now is just complete mess. and, crap, must find old printer software to install on new computer so printer will work, but can't seem to FIND printer software. may have left it down in san diego, but unsure. and do not want to go down to sd to find out that printer software is not there and will have to live through quarter without printer. is virtually impossible to live without printer as college student.

hate college. don't see point. will perhaps go mad, run away to italy, and start life anew as revolutionary feminist nun.