i am so distracted.

this whole studying thing sucks. yes, stating the obvious, i don't care. i can't concentrate. trying to review my adolescence textbook right now. i'm on chapter five. there are thirteen chapters. and then there's the lecture notes to go through. terrrrrrific. no sleep for me tonight.

this is so not pleasant. so instead, i will make a list of things i plan to do over break. in no particular order...

- knit.
- sleep.
- catch up on reading.
- try to research grad schools.
- snowboarding trip.
- knit.
- sleep.
- go christmas gift shopping.
- watch alias dvds. (SEASON TWO, BABY!)
- learn to drive the suv.
- turn 21.
- celebrate turning 21.
- knit.
- sleep.
- redecorate my bedroom (those star trek posters have to come down...)
- beg my mom to make all my favorite meals.
- eat all my favorite meals.
- and, oh yeah, did i mention knitting and sleeping?

sigh.

i almost lost a $100 bill in my room. i had hidden it somewhere and forgot where i put it. i was freaked out for a full ten minutes. finally, i gave up and tried to put a positive spin on it and told myself, "hey, one day you'll find it unexpectedly and it'll be like getting money from thin air." it was then that i remembered where i put it. yet another example of how finals can substantially damage your mind.

jo is now "planning" my 21st birthday party. really, it's just trying to find a good day for everyone, but that's the most important (and most annoying) part of it. poor girl has nothing to do all by herself at home. has no finals to study for like the rest of us. yeah... i hate her too.

juuust kidding. i love her. she's so awesome for doing this. yeah, i realize it stems from a sense of complete and utter boredom, but it's still a big task to take on, so... i thank you, jo. :) deb offered to help too. if she does, it'll be as if both of my parents are planning my 21st birthday party! (deb is my mother and jo is my father. naturally.)

so please direct all future inquiries to my party planner - jo. oooh, saying that makes me feel all cool and professional.

yeeess....

done
- 199 paper.
- chapter 13 of adolescent text.

ahhh, crap...

to do
- study for adolescence final.
- write resume. (hahahaha... right.)


man, i'm tired.

sometimes, i am still amazed that i know how to drive.


things to do
- write 199 paper.
- read chapter 13 of adolescent textbook.
- study for adolescence final.

this wouldn't be so bad if
a) i didn't feel like complete and total crap. woke up today with a runny nose and a sore throat. add that to my period and my feelings of fatigue and oncoming cramps.
b) i didn't think about knitting every two seconds. and...
c) i didn't think about visiting the new forum every two seconds.

we're all losing it. LOSING IT, I TELL YOU.

several hours ago, i was sitting on my bed reading when i started hearing this low beeping sound. it wouldn't go away and i wondered if anyone else heard it too. so i went to melissa's room and asked her if she could hear it. "it sounds like errrp...errrp...errp...," i said as descriptively as possible. she just looked at me and said no. so i went back to my room and two seconds later, the sound comes back. "OHMYGOD DID YOU HEAR IT DID YOU HEAR IT?!?" i said as i burst back into melissa's room. mel doesn't even say anything and just gives me a look. i start laughing/giggling/chortling a little too hysterically and tell her, "i swear i'm not going crazy, i can hear this sound." anyway, long story short - it was helen's cell phone vibrating. i felt so victorious when i finally figured it out. i'm...not...crazy...

about an hour ago, i went into melissa's room to wake her up from her nap. she was still really out of it but got out of bed to turn off her cell phone alarm. she looked at me and asked me, "where is the girl?" what girl, i asked. "i dreamt about a girl," she answered and just looked around blankly. i slowly backed out of the room so as not to alarm the clearly delusional and possibly psychotic melissa and closed the door. she went back to sleep and woke up a little while later and didn't remember a thing.

duuuude.... finals does weird things to your brain...

i love this new forum i'm on. i spent a good portion of the night just sitting here laughing at the words on my monitor. laughing so much that i couldn't breathe and my stomach started to hurt. ahhh... fun stuff, man.

all right. back to studying. i really don't know how much more of this my mind can take. AND IT'S ONLY THE BEGINNING.

oh yeah, i forgot to mention - i've got a job interview for a day care type thing on thursday. woohoo.

FINALLY. i got my period. whew. not pregnant.

just kidding. (or am i...?)

i'm tired of my boobs hurting, my face breaking out, and being so damn fatigued. oh, i'm sorry, was that too much information? oh well. hopefully it will be done with by saturday when i have to spend 8+ hours in a car. otherwise, that would suck.

i don't want to write this paper. i want to knit.

last saturday morning, i woke up and the very first thing i felt was an intense craving for krispy kreme donuts. last night, i dreamt that i drove to a krispy kreme (that i've never seen before and actually looked kind of suspicious) and bought a whole bunch of krispy kreme donuts.

it's like the powers to be are telling me something, i know it.

you know, i'm feeling really ambivalent about everything. not really looking forward to anything. except, possibly, krispy kreme donuts.