love actually is very very cute. it was the big-goofy-grin-on-my-face-won't-go-away kind of cute. i really liked it. :)

yes, even a melodramatic spinster can be a silly romantic.

so melissa just came into my room to share with me her class schedule dilemmas for next quarter.

melissa: i think i'm just going to take mo bio.
cherry: mo bio??
melissa: molecular biology.
cherry: ohhh...i thought you were trying to be ghetto or something. [does bad impression of ghetto speak] mo' bio!
melissa: [laughs a little]

ten seconds later

melissa: [finally gets the joke and laughs much much harder]


okay, i guess it's just another one of those unbloggable, you-had-to-be-there moments. but it really is funny watching melissa laugh at a joke she doesn't get and then seeing the comprehension finally dawning on her face. it really is like watching a a sad little light bulb finally light up.

and apparently, everyone calls it mo bio. i guess i'm just not up on the science lingo. oh well. but it really does sound ghetto.

ohmygod. i'm losing it. i wasn't paying attention while i was showering and poured shampoo onto my loofah. i was this close to shampooing my body.

okay, i've already ranted to melissa about this, but i feel like i need to rant about this in writing to fully get it off my chest.

basically, i think i'm a lot better off by myself then ever trying to get together with anyone. it's just too much trouble liking someone. i honestly believe that i'm going to be by myself for a long long while, maybe forever. and i know what you're all thinking - that i'm being too melodramatic or spinstery. i mean, i've never been in a situation that would cause me to swear off men forever such as a bad breakup (since that would imply that i would have had to BE with someone first in order to break up with them). but i've been thinking about this for a long while now. and i think it's just better for me. i've been by myself for so long that i don't think i could change my life for someone else. not that i would have to make any huge life changes or anything, it's just the subtle shifts in my life that i would have to make that i would rather not. at this point, i feel like i'm too stubbornly independent for that to happen.

i'm not writing about this in order to get any sympathy or pity. and this isn't some crazy, bitter single woman rant. it's just the way i feel. and anyway, is there something wrong with being single and female that needs to garner sympathy and pity? and don't think i'm in denial about anything either. is it so hard to believe that i could be happier on my own than with someone else? just because it may not be the "natural" way of things, doesn't make it wrong. believe me, i've thought about this long and hard (maybe too hard) so it's not like i just came to this conclusion in one day. are my standards too high? maybe. am i too closed off? maybe. but maybe there's also a reason for all of that. that i just wasn't meant to be with anyone. i feel stronger this way anyway. not that being with someone makes you weak, but in my case, i'm so used to having only myself to rely on that i don't think i could change. and i know you might think, well how can you turn your back on something you haven't even tried? well, i've never tried weed but that doesn't mean that i need to try it in order to know that it would be bad for me. not that weed and relationships are exactly the same, but you know. i don't think that was a good analogy. i know this whole entry sounds stupid and melodramatic; i wish i could explain myself better.

so that's it. this isn't me giving up. this is me moving on.

[and hopefully this is the last you'll see of serious post cherry. i hate serious post cherry. back to fun-loving, stupid post cherry.]

okay, i'm almost done listening to this cd twice in a row (and you better bet i'm listening to it a third time after this last song) and i don't think i've ever heard a better cd. there is seriously not one single song that i dislike. i can't tell you my favorites because i would just be listing the entire cd. although, okay, i do really really like "stupid," "push," "answer," "perfect girl," and "dirty little secret." but see there - i've already listed like half the cd.

sigh. i love it. okay, time to start the cd again.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am listening to sarah mclachlan's new cd right now. i am just going to sit here and listen. i absolutely adore her. i can't believe it's been so long since she's done a studio album. this is going to sound a little crazy and hysterical, but honestly, i am so happy right now, i could cry. i've only listened to three songs (well, two really since i've already heard fallen before) but it's AWESOME so far.

oh yeah, and i also got finding nemo. ;D but obviously, i'm a hundred gazillion times more excited about afterglow. so i will stop this distracting typing right now and go back to my listening.

i love her.

so the news are reporting on president bush's visit to san diego today. he landed at MCAS miramar just now on air force one, exchanged pleasantries with both of california's governors (ugh), and hopped onto a helicopter to go over to scripps ranch to view the damage. a minute later, i saw the helicopters go by our house. i just thought that was kind of cool. interactive tv. and that's probably the closest i'll ever get to the president.

okay, not that exciting, but whatever. need to brush teeth and shower now so that i can race out to target to pick up sarah's new cd and finding nemo. ;D

AAAAAAAAGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

so there's this concert that this radio station is giving down here called jingle ball. and sarah mclachlan and dido - the GODDESSES of music - are going to be performing on the same day. jewel will be performing the previous day, but if she were on the same day as them, it would almost be lilith fair, part 2. oh yeah, plus some other people will be there like jason mraz, barenaked ladies, howie day, and - funnily enough - kc and the sunshine band. it's on the friday right before finals week. but that's not what bothers me. what REALLY gets to me is the fact that the cheapest tickets are $69. that just kills me. before we knew what the ticket prices were, melissa had agreed to go with me, but now that we know how much tickets are, she's reconsidering, which i totally understand. if it weren't for sarah, i probably wouldn't go. but because she's going to be there, i'm willing to shell out the money. unfortunately, my problem now is finding someone to go with me. sigh. why don't i have more friends down here? this is sad.